The last two recordings on the dictating machine
she got that very day for a present.

I`ll never see her again, though she`ll always stay here with me, and nobody will ever know I loved her. I used to keep from her and from the others how much she meant to me. No, I`m not ashamed. I`ll take all her things except for the record player and records that guy gave her who was completely crazy about her. Not even today can I listen to that song they danced to all night long. She didn`t want to come out. She screamed from behind the door that I should get lost, and that she didn`t want to see me … That`s why I called M. then who caught her with the guy. I`m a witch, but so what? God chose me and I listen to him. Today I`ll take a boat to get her. Then she`ll be mine, because she belongs to me like a leash belongs to a dog…

I killed him, but not her. Where did she go? I don`t know that. I`m not saying she`s not a bitch and that I would have … But I didn`t. They say, we must talk about things, that we can`t talk about, over and over again… and I don`t doubt that I must look a more cruel person than you. But this is because you didn`t see her face. Especially the glow in her eyes when I caught them together. It wasn`t just as you may well imagine, no. It was something unfamiliar to me, and that`s why I was afraid and I didn`t know where to go. I ran away, but it seemed the sky was raining on my head all the women of this world, and I wanted them to gouge out my eyes, so I could no longer see her glow shining on him. That`s all I have to confess. I know I`ll hang anyway, so don`t pardon me at all, because I`m not sorry for what I`ve done.